August 2015 has been the most stressful month of my life to-date. That is a fact. On August 1, we started the adoption process (yay!). On August 6, I learned that I am being let go on October 6 (?!?!). I could go into lots of detail about both of these things, but suffice it to say that, in the words of my beloved Jane Austen, “I am half agony, half hope.” I’m trying so hard to focus on the hope. And so, I wrote this:

The Tightrope

They say the way is narrow and lined with rocks.

It’s narrow alright, and on either side, a terrifying chasm.

It’s a rickety bridge of ropes and broken boards,

And at the canyon’s bottom, sharp rocks and rushing water,

But my Lord is holding my hand.

He’s walking with me, carrying me,

And I am trying not to look down.

He asks me, gently, to fix my eyes on him

As he leads me across this tightrope

Above the never-ending abyss.

He whispers that I will not fall,

And commands his angels to guard below.

I do not know the way,

Or how long it will take,

Or how much more difficult the journey will be.

But I do know that I can close my eyes,

And worry not, because he is with me always.

My Lord will lead me home.

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10 thoughts on “Half Agony, Half Hope

  1. I’m sorry to hear about your job! How stressful, at a time when you’re trying to grow your family. Prayed for your and your husband! ❤

    Excited to hear more about the adoption process as it unfolds for you. Exciting!

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  2. God is in charge and he has something good for you planned down the road. Take it one day at a time and be sure to thank him for all the benefits he has given you– as he surely has blessed you in so many way. The best is yet to be!!!

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