I’ve been thinking a lot lately about my first love.
Relax, hubby. I’m talking about Music. There was a time in my life where I lived for singing, cantoring Masses, and playing in the band. I went to music school and dreamed of symphonic glory. My favorite thing to do was spend hours on end alone at my piano.
I don’t really know exactly what happened to that life. All I can say with certainty is that it changed.
For the past few months or so, I’ve been feeling drawn back to music more and more. I’ve started playing my piano again, a lot more often. At least one person I know is really enjoying this:
His favorite song seems to be “Sing to the Mountains”. He’s a good little Catholic bunny.
I hope I can stick to my practicing. Who knows where it will take me. I still don’t know what I want to do with my life. There are so many emotions to sort through. Maybe playing the piano will help me figure things out, somehow.
Everyone likes a chance to start over, but maybe we put too much pressure on January 1. Perhaps the reason we never keep our New Year’s resolutions past February is that a whole year is just too daunting. We always tell people to take life one day at a time. Maybe we need to take our resolutions one month at a time. Maybe every 30 days we need a New Month’s resolution.
Here’s an idea: Write down your big goal, or your New Year’s resolution. Then, write down what you are going to do this January in order to work for that goal. When January 31 comes around, make some notes on what you can do in February.
This year, instead of being one of those people who crowds the gym in January, maybe I’ll take some time to think about small steps I can take to accomplish my goals. For example, it’s not too hard to keep up exercise for one month. Maybe I’ll say, “This month of January, I am going to work out 3 times a week, write 4 hours a week, and spend at least 30 minutes reading that book I’ve renewed from the library 6 times already.”
Personally, I have several things I want to do this year. I’d like to publish some articles, get started on a book, find a job that fits my interests, get a wedding date that’s not too far in the future, brush up on my Italian and maybe start learning French, lose the 15 pounds I gained last year, spend more time at the park, make more dates with friends, and save as much money as possible. Funny how the last one makes all the rest more difficult. I’m sure I’ll find a way to make it all happen, but I have to take this one month at a time.